Hello Peeps!
It is a new year and time for rejuvenation and new beginnings! I am bound and determined to make this year a healthy productive one. One of my goals this year is to really focus on my writing. I want to finally finish my book and get it out there to publishers. It can't help anyone sitting idly in my computer files now can it? I have to take action to get it out there! Dreams don't come true without action, you know?
I have been getting kudos for my writing and that is good to get a lot of great feedback. My last piece that I wrote called "On The Edge" won an award which pleased me a lot. Writing takes a lot of time and focus and I am afraid I haven't been very good at sticking to my goals in 2007, but I have gained experience from that and know the direction I have to take. It won't move forward on it's own so I have to be the one to get my butt in gear and make it happen. It is time to unleash the writer that I know is inside of me and let her live up to her full potential!
Many changes have happened in my life this past year. I am transforming and changing along this spiral called life. Along the way, sometimes I forget to focus on my own spiritual needs. Like I say, when you are in the middle of the muck it is hard to see outside of that and connect to the spiritual side of things to help you. It's there waiting for you by your side, so it is more important than ever to connect to that spiritual world to help ground yourself and to settle into what your truth is. There is peace available when we need it the most. So that is another of my goals for 2008. Remembering to connect to the spirit when I am knee deep in muck.
I have started going to a regular monthly drumming group that is purely for fun. It is so pleasant meeting new friends who can teach me new things and gaining new experiences. It feels good to let loose and beat on dejimbe drums with the simple goal of coming together for joy and rhythm and while your at it having a blast with a room full of all kinds of neat people.
In turn, I will be leading a Native American drumming group that is more spiritual based that feeds my spirit. A lot of my newer friends will learn things from me as well as they get to experience a different kind of drumming. I am looking forward to growing my spirit and using my God given talents of leadership in this new year.
The new year will also bring many changes for me that will be good for me physically. I am going to be doing a 30 day food detox program that will focus on healthy eating and an overall sense of well being. It is time to make this change in my life and it is a very important goal for me this year to be able to do this and alter my life for a healthier, happier body that feels better and looks better. This will include becoming a lot more active physically which will be so good for my body. I have already started walking everyday which is so good. It invigorates my body and soul. That is a very good thing.
When people talk about diets, to me that word right there sets them up for failure right from the start. When people think of the word diet, they think about withholding food from themselves and making sacrifices for the things they truly enjoy. Most people who go on "diets" fail because it becomes too hard for them and if they do manage to lose weight, after they go off the diet, most of it comes back plus it brings more pound friends. That is why I refuse to do dieting plans. It really is a mind set that you have to tell your brain and your body that you are going to be eating healthier foods and making healthier choices for your body which will make you feel better about yourself and better physically. Making a lifestyle change around eating does not mean you will never get to eat the foods you love, but it means you will do so in moderation and really make the effort to be healthier.
I am really excited about the changes I am going to be doing for my body. Not only that but I have decided to make other physical changes as well that will make me feel good about how I look. I have to tell you that sometimes when I look in the mirror, I don't always like what I see. I am getting older and I have to face that. My body is changing and my face changes along with it. It is the natural order of things. I know that and realize it. I dont like the fact that my eyes look tired. I dont like the fact that I am getting brown age spots on my face that cause small children to point to them and ask what is wrong. I dont like looking tired and having baggy eyes. The fact that I dont like these things about myself does not mean that I hate myself nor does it mean that I am going to rush right out and start scheduling plastic surgery and having my face pulled tighter than a rubber band and have to talk through clenched teeth for the rest of my life. Nooooooo.....
What it means is that I need to take the steps and do things that will make me feel better about myself. I can start using under eye cream to tighten my bags. After all I don't want to be a bag lady. I can use products on the market that will help fade my age spots and refreshen my skin. Oil of Olay makes some very good products and I know they work well. My great aunt who was well into her late 80's used them on a daily basis and you would have never been able to guess her age and her skin was beautiful right up to her death. The point is, that there are things you can do to take care of your skin and products available on the market that can help you achieve this. Is this vanity? I dont think so, but I could be wrong. For me it is doing the things that help me to feel better about my self and my body. What's wrong with that?
I purchased lipstick this week. Not only one tube, but five different colors! Oh my Gawd! I am becoming a lipstick lesbian! Noooooo.... settle down now peeps, don't bring the high heels out just quite yet. It just means that I want to do things for myself that feel good to me. Some of these things are things I have not done in over twenty five years. I want to feel attractive for me. Lovie of course sits by and watches me smiling with a gleam in her eye. I say that isn't a bad thing either. In fact this lifestyle change may have all kinds of extra benefits!! Sign me up!!!
Over the last year I have also examined the relationships in my life. As I grown and expand and learn and heal and connect with my spirituality, I have found that sometimes my relationships change too. It isn't a good or bad thing. It simply is what it is. Following your heart and doing what is best for you personally may break the heart of another if you find you have to make adjustment changes to your relationship. I ended a very important relationship with somebody this past year and it was an extremely difficult process and adjustment. Was it the right thing for me to do? My spirit guides tell me yes, however letting go is never easy. But I have found that if I am to be the person I was always meant to be, I have to listen to my intuition and The Great Spirit and follow my path as it was meant to be. Is the road easy? No, but it is one I must take.
If I have learned anything along this path called life it is learning to sit in silence and listen quietly for the answers to unfold and reveal themselves to you. My goal is to listen more often and try not to get in the way of the divine direction I receive. Sometimes we don't understand the why, but we have to trust and have faith that things are the way they are meant to be if we are paying attention and listening. Sometimes it doesn't even have anything to do with us, but for others. We are merely vessels.
Well I have rambled on far too long so I will bid you a lovely afternoon and a blessed new beginning to the new year.
I think we should meet more often like this, what do you say?
Bear Hugs!
PolarB ;)
