DAGNABBIT!!!!!!!! Every time I try to get on one of your sites to comment my dang computer here at work keeps closing down on me!!! I will have to wait until tonight when I get home to catch up to everyone...-- Thank you all for the birthday wishes! You made my weekend!-- I will catch up soon--oh and BTW the hot stone massage was HEAVENLY and UTTERLY DIVINE!!!- I have a therapy session tonight so I will be home later but catch ya soon peeps!

Love,
PolarB ;)

Today is ME day and I am celebrating being ME! I am going to enjoy this day doing whatever I darn well please!



So there!

Thank you all for being in my life- it means more than you'll ever know!--

Okay- after I get my coffee I am heading out to get my luxurious massage!-- Later peeps!

Mucho Lovin and PolarBear Huggin

Love,
PolarB ;)

Hey peeps!

I just wanted to catch up a bit. I noticed that I am not getting any visitors lately and very few comments... I suppose everyone has run for the hills because of my depressing posts the last few times I posted.. Just trying to keep it real people.

Oh well... I will try to lighten the mood a bit or not post at all when I am having those kinds of days. I know people want to come to the stream to relieve a little stress and have fun verses reading about someone else's shit...Everyone has their own crap that they deal with on a daily basis sometimes so I will cool it and try to lighten up even when I dont really feel that way. Actually I have been feeling a bit better because of a few things but that will be private for me and I wont share those things on here.

I am looking forward to tomorrow. I am getting a hot stone massage which I absolutely love. It is a treat to myself. I'm worth it so it is money well spent. Lovie will be taking me to dinner tomorrow evening to a really nice place of my choice and I am looking forward to it. We've been there a few times and the food is excellent. Ribs are their specialty and I plan on eating a bunch of em. They are yummy! I might even get a nice refreshing cocktail and sinful calorie filled desert! Anymore I am a cheap drunk because I dont actually drink that often anymore and I will probably have to bring the desert home because I can never eat it when we go out. I get too full from the main course but this will all be very good.

I have a suprise that I will post for you soon but not yet. You will have to wait and see. I have my knee surgery scheduled on the 20th of October and am looking forward to getting it done. Our annual Halloween party was scheduled for the 21st but my family the loving and caring family they are decided to move it to the 14th so I could still participate. I love them for that- makes me know they really do care about me. So with the party being changed to the 14th that means I have less than a month to get everything together for this year's event! I have decided on my costume and not telling anyone! I cant even tell you because there are peeps on here who will remain nameless for now (you know who you are anyway!) that are trying to get it out of me! They will just have to wait until party night when they come and can see for themselves! Mama Bear and Dad keeps thinking they will fool me and make me say what it is.. Nope! They will all have to wait but be rest assured it will be good- always is! I already bought parts of my costume and still have more to get to put it all together. Probably go looking tomorrow a bit as well for the rest of what I need. Material for sure and I already have the sequins! HA HA! I hear your minds churning trying to make out something of that! Don't worry pictures will definately come later and then you will all see.

Okay-- well I should get going for now- just wanted to catch up a bit and say hello and see what you all were up to too. You can come down out of the hills now!

Later gators!
PolarB ;)

Yeah yeah yeah I know I've posted this before but so what?!!??
I kinda like the little feller....

I have been busy and not much time on here but I will try to post later tonight to catch up.

Have a wonderful day and MAMA BEAR- Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

Later peeps!
PolarB ;)

Today seems to be a good day so far.. tears come but that is okay. Crying is good for the soul. Lovie and I ran errands all morning. Just got in around 3 this afternoon and I am dawg tired. Planning to sit by the bonfire tonight and relax. I am looking forward to Mom coming home tomorrow. I have missed her something awful. It is good to have a mom and dad in my life that mean so much to me now. There is true caring and love there and that means so much to me. More than they will ever know. I have been connecting with people in my life and that feels good too. I am very blessed to have good friends and family now. I have an appointment Monday with the new therapist and actually I am kind of looking forward to it. I guess that is a good sign. I have found a sexual assault support group that I may check out later. It is good to have options... These things are flowing so well that it lets me know I am right where I am supposed to be on my path. True healing will occur within me. I feel like I am leading up to something bigger than me. Hard to explain but.. I feel like I am walking through this fire at this time in my life to prepare me for my next direction in life. I know where it is leading and I just have to be willing. It aint fun but it will definately be worth it.

Sometimes pain blurs the vision but once you walk through it you will have clarity again in your eyes. I am seeing the clarity shining through today. Still have much to do but I am walking forward even though it sometimes feels I am going backwards. I am not. It's like Daisy's spiral... you may think you keep going around in a circle not getting anywhere but when you take a closer look you are moving slowly upward and always constantly forward.

Okay... well. I am going go check out some other posts and hang out for a while...Oh!! BTW my knee surgery date is Oct 20th ... Finally I will have a new knee.. I'll post more later as it gets closer.

Later peeps.
PolarB ;)