Hey Peeps!

Just wanted to pop in and say hello... it has been a busy couple of weeks... unfortunately all this rain we are currently getting is not helping the situation with trying to get all the yard work done. On top of that we have two push mowers that Lovie uses to cut over an acre of land and both of them decided to go out on us on the same day.... and so she pulled the old trusty weed eater out and it apparently has decided to go on strike as well so here we have three weeks worth of tall grass that is being costantly feed and nurtured by the rains which is making it grow grow grow!!! YIKES! I decided to get Lovie a riding mower for her birthday which is this Saturday... she has been resisting for years telling me she wants the exercise and likes to cut the grass, but the truth of the matter is that it takes her nearly three days to get it all done and it wears her out. So her birthday gift is arriving today and I know she will be so glad about that! We are slowing tearing the pool down and are excited about the possibilities of a new courtyard next summer. I already have several drawings and plans... but it will take money and time to make it happen... All in good time....

We have so much to do and we are leaving Friday to head back to the mountains for a 10 day camping trip....Maybe this is Mother Earth's way of telling us we need to take a break and slow down a bit....Whatever it is- I am ready and willing to listen and am looking forward to the mountain air nurturing my spirit.

Since we are leaving Friday I just wanted to drop in to say hello and to let you know I wont be back on here until June. I am glad to be part of this blogstream family and will miss you guys.... but just know that I will be taking wonderful pictures that I plan on sharing with you and that I will be nurturing my tired spirit and renewing it with the nature that will be all around me.

Well.... that's about it folks! See ya in June!
Bear hugs to all and much love and light to each of you.

Love,
PolarB ;)

Okay Peeps- Instead of me posting my Five Fun Facts I thought I would go off base and show you some of the things I collect. This was inspired by Puppy's post, so I took a few pictures of some of the things I collect...

I collect posters particularly ones that have old movie stars on them or ones that have been associated with festivals or plays or movies.

Here is one of them... One of my favorites.



Isn't she beautiful? I love Marilyn Monroe. There is something classy and innocent about her. She died way too young and will continue to be a legend. Here's to you Norma Jean...

I also collect old tin signs... not too many originals but mostly reproductions... Here are a few of my favorite ones....









and now for my all time favorite one...



Yes there is a little fairy in my home.... that just cracks me up!

I may post more of my favorite things after I take some pics of them....

Have a great Friday and weekend everyone! I may be on over the weekend so I will try to paddle down the stream for a visit soon!

Much love and bear hugs to you all!
PolarB ;)

Reflecting

Wow... Time sure flies and seems to go faster and faster the older I get. I was justing thinking about my book and about my healing journey and where it has brought me to so far. I am a different person than I used to be... much wiser, more loving and amazingly enough much more spiritual than I'd ever thought I would be, considering my past. Not spiritual in the sense of being religious or part of any organized religion, but in on a much deeper level and within my very being. I know what I stand for... I know what my truth is, I know how I want to live my life and how I want to treat others around me. I feel a peace within me in who I am today and I have a greater connection to the Great Spirit above and the universe around me and a respect and gratitude for my life and the world we live in.

Although I have come through much pain and suffering and abuse, I am a better person for it because of who I have become. I know that may seem odd to say but it is the truth...I could have easily chosen another path... one of self destruction and hatred and I could have continued the cycle of hurt and pain, in fact I almost did...however, that was not my path nor was it ever my purpose in this life....I am grateful that I had the sense and the directions of my spirit guides to show me that...Through my healing I have discovered a peace within me that makes me feel connected to something much bigger than I can ever put into words. I know that I have went through many of my life lessons and I have come out on the other side.

There will always be pain and suffering in this world and there will be people who do horrid things to one another for an eturnity, but I can choose to be the light that I want surrounding me in this world. I can be the change I want to see in the world and I can show kindness and compassion and love to those around me even though they may not always do the same to me. Sometimes I think that is what real healing is about. It's about coming through the storms and struggling to find the calmness and the peace within our hearts and seeing everything around us in a whole new light and perspective in a way that we never have before. It about knowing what really matters in this life and being who you were always meant to be. I truly believe that each of us have a destiny to fulfill and sometimes people will never be open enough to see what that is for them. I feel I have found my destiny and my purpose in this life.

Being spiritual to me is about living my life authentically, having respect and reverance for those around me. It's about looking within and liking what I see. It's about feeling the peace and calm that my life and my world gives me. It's being connected to the universe in a way that you know there is something better to come. My physical body will cease at some point but my spirit will live on and on. I like the thought of knowing that I am getting what I need to out of this human experience that is teaching me the lessons that I need to know for my spiritual life. Maybe that's why I dont fear death anymore...because I know what is on the other side and it is good.

Yes I have been hurt terribly, yes I have been abused and at times even tortured and put through things that I didnt know if I could survive it or not....but I did... and I survived it for a reason. I think I am much stronger because of what I went through with my father and the church and the people that took the innocence of my childhood. Yes I have felt intense fear and much pain, but in feeling that it makes me appreciate the joys and the peace in my life now much much more...

I dont ever have to be afraid again... I wont ever be used or abused or treated like a piece of meat or trash ever again...I dont have to ever feel like I am nothing again... I am somebody... and I have learned over much time that I did not deserve to be treated that way.

I deserved to have parents who would love me and who would nurture me and appreciate my small child self. I deserved to feel the wonder and the joy of discovering so many things as any small child should. I deserved to not have to live in fear and be afraid of a look or a touch or feel that I was bad inside. I wasnt bad inside, I was a child, and my soul was good....I wasn't evil like they told me I was, I was perfect and I was an innocent child. I deserved to keep my innocence and I was pure inside with my childlike wonder... Funny how it has taken me over 40 years to see and know that. But it is my truth.

I cant stop this world from hurting others and although I may want to save all the children and women and men in the world who are being hurt right now just like I was and possibly even worse.... I know that I cant do that....and that is sad but what I can do is be who I am and let my light shine and be a light and a guide to others who are on their path of recovery for whatever it is that they need healing and recovery for... I can show empathy and compassion and love to others. I can be a positive force in this world and be who I was always meant to be by sharing myself and my life experiences with others so that my light will help shine the way for them.

I have come so far from where I began ...from the very start of my life until now... I have changed and I have healed and I have evolved....I am making a difference in this world and in the life of others...

BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD!



Peace and blessings!

PolarB ;)

If you need a stress reliever then I've got the perfect site for you....

http://www.planetdan.net/pics/misc/georgie.htm

Came across this site and had to share... enjoy!

PolarB ;)

Hey bloggers and buddies!

Wow! Where is the time going??? I am amazed that it is already May 1st... and the warm weather is here... time for growth and renewal and thriving... also time to get busy and get outside and working with Mother Earth.....

I don't know if you've noticed or not but I have not been on here as much as I used to.... tons of things are happening in my world and sometimes there is not enough time in the day to get it all done... warmer weather means working outside, taking care of the lawn and the flowers and getting the garden ready for the growing season. It also means cleaning all the outdoor furniture and putting it in it's place and having time to soak in some of the glorious sunshine....

The garden still needs tilling... and I have tons of veggies to put in... this year we are growing corn, green beans, sugarsnap peas, turnips, carrots, radishes, tomatoes, jalepeno peppers, zuchinni, pickling cucumbers, patty pan squash, sweet onions, asparagus and of course my strawberries and all my herbs. However, they won't plant or tend to themselves so Lovie and I will be busy getting everything in and trying to keep the weeds and the bunnies out until harvest time....

We have over an acre of land and Lovie usually mows but it takes a few days to get it all done as we have push mowers ....both of which just went out....maybe we will get that riding mower sooner than we think....we will if I have anything to say about it.... with both of us working full time, all the work just can't get done on the weekend... it sure would be nice to have the summers off just like we did when I was in school.... that would be a nice rejuvination for all of don't you think?

The storms we had a few weeks ago took out 6 sections of our pool
so it unfortunately is beyond repair, so we are trying to see if insurance will cover it or not... either way, we wont be able to enjoy our pool this year.... bummer.... now we are trying to make a decision as to whether we want to replace the pool which was a huge pool- 30' round and 4 1/2 foot deep or decide if we want to put in a courtyard in the space. It is off of our back decks from the screen house and either one would look great but I sure did enjoy that pool and my little a'naturel moonlight swims.....oh well..... whatever will be will be....

Lovie and I are getting close to our big camping trip too and we are already gathering our list of things to we need to pack for the trip..... I cant wait... the mountains are always good for my soul.... and I love the slower pace of life there...

I guess in all of this...what I wanted to say was that I probably wont be posting as much or be on here as much responding to everyone else.... I love you guys and unfortunately life is just getting in the way right now and there is much to do.....so in case you dont hear from me or I dont get to visit with you each as much... I am thinking of you and will get on here as I get the chance to.

Take care and I'll see you sometime soon....
Big old bear hugs from da big white bear!
PolarB ;)