This was a photo I took a a while back of me and Lovey relaxing watching the sunset.... Ahhhhhhhhhhh how relaxing........



I love everything about the beach.... the calming power of the ocean in it's infinity.... the sounds, the smells, the power, the energy....



Wishing I was there right now....

PolarB ;)

Hello all-

Well it's Sunday and almost going on 4:00- I slept good and hard last night. Got into bed about 1:20am and didn't get up until nearly 10 this morning which is highly unusual for me- I am almost always up before 8 on the weekends. But I slept sound last night.. My body was stiff this morning... I must not have even moved last night... so I crawled into a hot bath with Epsom Salts and soaked for a while... Nice way to wake up slowly and in comfort.

I am still thinking about the movie "Brokeback Mountain".... it makes me want to write and write because it has provoked alot of feelings and thoughts within me.... thinking about how people go about their everyday life not truly being happy and not living the life they were meant to live. I wonder how many people are married to someone they don't even love, yet they go in and out of each day unhappy and feeling alone inside. In the moments that they are alone and quiet, can they even be honest with themselves? The things that would make them happy, they fear so they stay in a place that makes them miserable... they stay in their little binding cocoon and continue to live a lie. But is that really living at all?

What kind of world would this be if everyone started truly living authentic lives? People's whole demeanor would change I bet.... they would be able to feel joy and love and enthusiasm for life like it was meant to be lived. ...It would make a difference and maybe everyone would not be wrapped so tight ready to unload and explode on Joe Schmo... Did you ever notice how people are too busy to slow down and appreciate life and the wonderous world we have around us? Sometimes when I am driving to work or coming home I tend to look around as I am driving... of course I take the backroads because I absolutely can't stand the rush and hustle of rush hour traffic... but I take backroads because it gives me time to unwind and think and just enjoy quiet time (althought sometimes I am jamming to music..)) but my point was that I look over in the cornfields and see deer or I see hawks or wildlife in general and I wonder how many other cars passing have missed something truly beautiful because they didn't open their eyes and look around them. Sometimes I have watched people and they are so busy being angry or talking on the cellphone or trying to pass you and driving like a maniac that I wonder how they can do that day in and day out..... There is something to be said for stopping to smell the roses....

Here are some things running through my head.... maybe your thoughts will be provoked too....................but what are you gonna DO about it?

Do you embrace the gentle yearnings of your heart or do you ignore them? If you ignore them, why?

Do you feel passionate about things that you enjoy? Do you let yourself feel joy and pleasure participating in those passions? This isn't just about sexual pleasure but many things....you can feel passion for hiking, for photography, for art for music, for traveling.....so how often do you allow yourself to do the things you feel passinate about? If you put if off because you don't have time to do them.... isn't that really just an excuse?

Are you running on overload or burnout? What are the things you can do for just you to rejuvinate yourself and find balance again? Can you think of 5 nice things you can do for just you and you alone?

Do you allow your creativity to come through or do you stuff it because you listen to the lies you tell yourself such as-it's not good enough or this is silly?

Do you allow yourself to play or do you feel it is too childish? Give yourself permission to play and be spontanious- remember the joy you felt as a child playing and laughing with not a care in the world... just enjoying that precise moment of living? It really is okay to allow yourself to feel that freedom of being childlike again and having some fun. It renews us and makes us feel alive... go ahead- let your child out!

What risks would you love to have the nerve to take and why haven't you taken them? Do you push yourself beyond your comfort zone? If not what do you think will happen if you do? Do you fear failure or are you really fearing sucess?

Are you waiting for life to be perfect? Do you hear yourself saying I want to wait to have kids until.... I want to change jobs but need to wait for..... I am unhappy in this relationship but want to wait until he or she.......Just what the heck are you waiting for???? Stop waiting and start living a satisfying life.

If you knew you were going to die tomorrow would you have regrets about something you did or didn't do? Why are you waiting for time to run out? Is fear stopping you? Are YOU stopping you?

The one thing that is constant is you always have a choice..... you can choose to remain as you are or you can chose to change?
Which will you choose?

The real truth of the matter is that when we deny who we really are and who we love and what we love- we are not being truthful to ourselves and we are not living the life we were meant to live.

Our deepest wishes and wants are the whispers of our true selves-
We must learn to respect them and we must learn to start listening and start truly living the life you were destined to live.

Listen to the whispers of your heart and be willing enough to look within.

Love to you all.... now I gotta go and think some more....
PolarB ;)

Hello bloggers- I've not been home most of the day so I haven't posted much today- Got up early and did errands and paid bills- It usually takes 25-30 minutes to drive into town from where we live so we decided to get everything done all in one trip- went to 11 different places this morning until early afternoon- ended with getting our groceries so we got back around 3:10 this afternoon.. then Lovey and I decided to go out tonight and see a movie- didn't know what was really playing at the theater so we went and ended up seeing what everyone has labeled the "gay Cowboy movie"

Brokeback Mountain was a really moving and beautiful movie- I can see why it got alot of awards already. It was a slower paced movie which typically I am not fond of, however this was an exception because the pace went with the story the scenery and the overall feeling of the movie and it was a very touching love story. I won't give anything away in case some of you were planning to go see it but let me say it was thought provoking and a beautiful film that touched my soul. I was moved to tears several times throughout the film.

Afterwards, Lovey and I grabbed a bite to eat at a local resturant and we both were dicussing the film and the feelings it provoked within each of us and what outcome we wished it would or could have had. We both noticed that while the movie was playing not a sound could be heard- all attention was solely focused on this movie and you could have heard a pin drop.

If you get a chance to see it, or you already have seen it- please comment because I would like to know your thoughts about this movie.

I am actually pretty tired tonight so I am gonna head up to bed in just a few moments...

If you love someone, tell them, if you love someone, show them, if you love someone, let it resignate in your soul and settle in your bones. Don't waste one precious moment not living or being true to yourself.

PolarB ;)

One day the first grade teacher was reading the story of Chicken Little to her class. She came to the part of the story where Chicken Little tried to warn the farmer. She read, "..... and so Chicken Little went up to the farmer and said, "The sky is falling, the sky is falling!" The teacher paused then asked the class, "And what do you think that farmer said?" One little girl raised her hand and said, "I think he said: 'Holy Shit! A talking chicken!'" The teacher was unable to teach for the next 10 minutes.

 

LOL!

PolarB ;)